my little precious.
6 years ago today God gave me the greatest gift. He made me a momma to the boy of my dreams. ive been telling you and your brother the story of the day you were born, you love to hear it. it is the best bed time story, riding in the car story and just me and you story. so today i will write it to you so that you can keep it close to you always. it is still so clear to me.
i knew you would come early, i could feel it in my bones but i didnt expect you as early as you came. this was a blessing to me because i didnt have time to begin to get scared of the process.
it was a normal may day in arizona, HOT. my feet had been swelling up like fat tamales for the past couple weeks. they were so awful and sad. on this day, a wednesday your brand new crib that grandma and grandpa gifted you was delivered so grandma and grandpa came over and daddy and grandpa built your crib. i painted a tree on the wall just behind your crib and finished setting up your room. i had started nesting early and had already packed a bag and washed your clothes. again, i knew you were coming. After your crib was built, i laid on our couch with my fat feet propped up and watched some tv and had some snacks. me and daddy had made plans to go to our friends house for dinner that night so we decided to take a nap. i woke from that nap with what felt like a kick or pop. i knew it was likely my water breaking but really just thought like most first timers that it would be a false alarm. we called dr leonard (the best dr ever) and he told daddy to bring me into the hospital. daddy panicked and ran around the house for an hour pretending or attempting to gather things while i showered, shaved my legs and put on some mascara. i remember telling george not to cancel our dinner date but to let them know that we would be late. it was about 5 pm, and we arrived at the hospital at nearly 7. sure enough my water did break and apparently i was having contractions every 5 minutes. contractions i did not feel. daddy finally called grandma and grandpa to come on over, and told auntie who hopped on the first flight available from california. nurses worried that i wasnt feeling the contractions and maybe needed pitocin, i remember asking them to wait a bit and sure enough at about 9:30pm i felt that first contraction that hit me like a wall and made me barf all over, this was still all in the triage room because apparently your birthday was a popular one in mercy gilbert hospital that year. i was finally moved to my room and i remember asking to use the restroom which they absolutely refused to let me do. i remember closing my eyes through each contraction and telling your daddy to squeeze or pinch my hand to distract me from the pain. i remember grandma and grandpa sitting on the sofa bed in our room quietly. and i remember when daddy asked them to step out because it was time to push. i remember dr leonard taking a peek and prepping and i so clearly remember having a contraction in the middle of it and peeing straight in his face! he so softly and politely asked the nurse to please grab a towel and wipe his face. a couple of pushes later you arrived to this world i remember them putting you on my chest and holding you and quickly looking up to see the clock at 12:42am. i remember dr leonard making a joke (your daddy will tell you later). i immediately started to breastfeed you and i can still almost feel the severe trembling of my legs, arms and jaw from all the adrenaline of a amazing drug free birth. my perfect green eyed baby. God is So good.
oh, by the way you were still jonah at the time.
a few other things about those few days-
my grandma was here visiting and you are so lucky to have met her. she loved holding you.
my grandma also yelled at me for leaving the hospital wearing a summer sun dress (because of course my milk would dry from having my shoulders exposed!)
auntie was there the next morning
i told daddy that you were not a jonah but Gavin, he sulked, went home to grab your car seat and came back with Julian as a middle name which i gave him.
nina julie and auntie cindy were there by the time we got home.
i loved the whole thing.